谈工作

是的，已经在亚历山大医院工作了三个月。请不要问我工作如何，我想没有人会喜欢这种Intensive Training 吧！+苦笑+

说是9am 上班，而我总觉得90% 以上的日子我都在8am 以前就到医院报道，目前最高纪录715am 到办公室与Preceptor having discussion，这还不包括星期六Half working day。 每晚在msn Pharm04 的名单内都看到大同小异的displayed nick：I dun like my current life；When can I clear my sleep debt? ; Try to relax while there is a chance...

For the sake of your licence, please bear with this 9 months......已经数不清多少人和我说过这句至理名言。我也只想过9个月这一关，想要正常的作息时间，平衡的生活方式。就只是这样而已。

每逢佳节倍思亲

古人有云：独在异乡为异客，每逢佳节倍思亲。

是的，我又想家了，尤其是在中秋节的夜晚。

手头上有着永远都读不完的Practice Guidelines, 密密麻麻的英文字母似乎变成了蚂蚁，在我面前爬来爬去, 我眼花缭乱，暂时宣布投降！

拨了长途电话回家与爸妈聊天，又与大姐、弟妹谈了片刻，再次发现我真的很爱他们。

Guok Girls 即将成为历史，只能无奈地向前看，好聚好散才算精彩。今晚的中秋节，Guok House 没有两年前的闹哄哄中秋晚会，也没有一年前的张灯结彩。午夜1130pm，三个女人 坐在一块儿，分享甜美的月饼，享受彼此在一起的温馨时光。幸福依旧存在，只要用心去感受。

时间一直马不停蹄地在赶路，几时才会停下来，让人有机会欣赏沿途的风景？答案永远只有一个“不可能”。而我没有办法错过精彩的过程，唯有让时间远远的把我抛在后头。如果龟兔赛跑历史重演，我将会是那只改写历史的乌龟。

回来了

赫然发现，这个Blog被我不小心遗弃了半年。阿坤哥，谢谢你的提醒，原来我还有一个Blog =)

昨天与一群老朋友聚会，闲聊过去，畅谈将来。

友人突然问：那么多年来，你有没有觉得当初的选择是对的？有后悔吗？
我回道：是对的，没有后悔。

还蛮庆幸，这样的答案，是打从心底说出来的。

懒洋洋的星期天午后，没有别的借口不打起精神来，为了最初的那个梦想而继续努力。 但愿我的坚持没有错，但愿我的热忱还在。

在想念家人、怀念朋友、牵挂着某些人的当儿，还有好多好多事情等着我去完成。 原来，人老了，责任越多，烦恼越多，时间却不多。

当你在浏览我的“回来”篇时，也希望你过得好好的。。。

祝你生日快乐，马来西亚 =）

最初的梦想

如果骄傲没被现实大海冷冷拍下
又怎会懂得要多努力
才走得到远方
如果梦想不曾坠落悬崖
千钧一发
又怎会晓得执着的人
拥有隐形翅牓
把眼泪装在心上
会开出勇敢的花
可以在疲惫的时光
闭上眼睛闻到一种芬芳
就像好好睡了一夜到天亮
又能边走着边哼着歌
用轻快的步伐
沮丧时总会明显感到孤独的重量
多渴望懂得的人 给些温暖借个肩膀
很高兴一路上 我们的默契那么长
穿过风 又绕个弯 心还连着
像往常一样
最初的梦想 紧握在手上
最想要去的地方
怎么能在半路就放
最初的梦想 绝对会到达
实现了真的渴望
才能够算到过了天堂

宁静的夜晚
有Singapore Top 88 Drugs
有范玮琪的歌
有手上紧握着最初的梦想的人
直到天亮......

大大的生活、小小的感动

时间真的走得很快很快，一眨眼我已经坐在回新加坡的夜班长途巴士上。农历新年好像昨天刚发生似的。

趁着等待巴士启程的空档，我挨近窗口，看看游子们与亲人依依不舍道别的画面。突然发现，有好多人都和我一样离乡背井，在另一个离家很遥远的城市，很努力地为生活而奋斗。有那么多人和我一起加油，其实我并不孤单。

“爸爸要去新加坡做工了。要乖乖，要听妈妈的话，知道吗？爸爸下一次回来买玩具给你。。。”

一段再也普遍不过的生活对白，从我座位后方传来。然而，我听了之后，鼻子一酸，眼泪很不争气的流了出来。我就是那么奇怪，平时看电影或小说，不管故事情节多么地凄楚可悲，我就是哭不出来，也难怪有些朋友说我“铁石心肠”。而偏偏这种生活中的小细节，却能轻而易举地感动了我。

是啊，我始终是幸福的！从小就在家人的呵护下长大，也不必经历刚才和父亲通电话的小孩那种等待爸爸回家的心情。天知道那小孩幼小的心灵可经得起多大的考验与耐力；而那慈爱的爸爸心理又多么不舍得和自己的孩子分隔两地。无奈，为了生活，有些牺牲是必须的。

希望可以在往后大大的生活里，体验更多小小的感动。因为我知道那些小小的感动将会是我的心情治疗剂，使我少了一分抱怨，多了一分知足。

给孩子和爸爸：生活要加油，为了你们再次团聚的一天 :)

Happy Rat Year =)

Today is the 1st day of the 2008 Lunar New Year. I woke up not so early, not so late. This year's new year celebration in my kampung and house seems to be a bit quiet as compared to previous years. Perhaps me and my siblings have grown up, not as enthusiastic as we used to be when we were still young.

Anyway, I wish my family, relatives and friends to have a wonderful Rat Year. The most important ones would be to stay healthy and happy most of the time. Yippie ^_^

p/s: There are mountains of school works waiting for me to clear during this CNY period...jialat...I brought whole stack of notes & textbooks from NUS. I tried, but still very reluctant to start off with my work. This is CNY man! See how bah =_="

ENFJ

"Empower Yourself For Success !" It was this advertisement by the NUS Career Centre that grabbed my attention. I was then persuaded by my roommate to attend the workshop that costed me $2. One day before the talk, we were asked to carry out an online psychometric test.

The test results confirmed my personality type as ENFJ

Extraverts
Attracted to many different things
Like to talk, sometimes without thinking
Like to get involved, make it happen
Keyword: Outgoing

Intuitives
Notice the whole picture
Theoretical - interested in WHY things work
Creative - like to experiment
Keyword: Imaginative

Feelers
Appreciate sensitivity
Quick to give support
Merciful - individual circumstances noted
Keyword: Compassionate

Judgers
Are comfortable when everything is organized
Like to have a time-framed schedule
Decide quickly - sometimes bossy
Keyword: Organized

General Description:
ENFJs glow with warmth and sympathy. They are creative and organized and enjoy helping others achieve their personal goals. ENFJs want to understand people, so they are interested in theories of human behaviour. Since ENFJs bring out the best in others, they make popular leaders and faithful supporters. They are gifted communicators.

Career Insights:
ENFJs value harmony and personal growth as ideals so they prefer to work in settings that promote these ideals. Since they are outgoing and organized, ENFJs adapt easily to organizational policies and procedures - as long as the procedures are in line with their idealized goals. ENFJs will enjoy work that helps people get along better and improve themselves. Careers often chosen by ENFJs include the religious professions, health care, psychology, writing, fine arts, teaching (art, drama, music) and counselling.

hmm...I think the test was quite accurate. After the evaluation of the test by the speaker in the workshop, I found myself is about 75% ENFJ. The remaining 25% non-ENFJ hopefully can serve as a buffer to harmonise my personality and character. No one is perfect after all. I kinda appreciate what I have learnt from the 2-hour workshop. At least I know myself better =)

Think BiG

"Life is too short to be SMALL, think BIG ! "

My dear friends, do you agree with the statement above? I could not find an absolute answer for myself...

I attended the Pharmacy Young Alumni Talk over the last weekend. I think it is really good to have seniors coming back to deliver some speech to inspire their juniors. That is one of the things that I appreciate very much in the pharmacy course.

There were six speakers came back to share their experiences with us. All of them were young, energetic and ambitious Pharmacy Alumni. They spoke confidently, could not really tell that they graduated from NUS in only less than 3 years. While listening, I was dreaming again... Is it possible for me to become like my seniors some day in the future?

"Hey, my fellow juniors. Come on, don't limit yourselves. All of you must think Big! Really..." I was awaken by someone talked with a relatively high pitch of voice.

Well, eventually I have come out with my Year 2008 resolution: Think BiG ^_^ V

生活啊。。。

最近身边发生了不少事情，好坏参半，让我更深入体验人生的起起落落，也看清了不同人的友情价值观。原来，我比自己想象中更爱身边的朋友。

有人为了物质上的满足而努力工作赚钱，有人为了心灵上的富足而乐善好施，有人为了崇尚自由而浪迹天涯，有人为了多活在这个世上一秒钟而与病魔搏斗。。。不管发生任何事情，日子还是要过的。

我一直都在默默祈祷，但愿我爱的和爱我的亲人与朋友，在身边或在远方的，一切都安好。农历新年快到了，就让它成为我的新年愿望吧！

It's Time to Wake Up

Time flies! In less than 10-hour time I will be attending the 1st lecture of my final semester -- Natural Products. By looking at the name of the module, I can feel that it is such a so called "sienz" module. Quite a number of coursemates complained to me about the "sienz" module on msn just now. Poor Dr Chui that his students do not apprecitiate his 用心良苦。I printed out the lecture notes needed for the lesson, get ready for the "早睡早起" practice again. Hopefully I can wake up on time. No wonder a friend of mine said I am so 乖. Yup, I also think the same way :P

My roommate said it is time to wake up. Yup, reality calls. I attended a Resume Workshop a few days ago. The alarm is ringing, asking me to work harder and stop dreaming in my own world. I shall carry on with my responsibility as a university student. Attending lectures, lab sessions, assignments, mugging, CAs etc. Honestly, I hate all these. That's why I was not excited at all when I met my classmates again in the Resume Workshop, as they reminded me that I am back to NUS! Argh....

Anyway, since I have got no choice, I shall stop blaming anyone or anything for no reason. I shall think in a positive way. I want to appear as an energetic person in front of my friends when I see them in the class.

An alarm is ringing: Hey, Tomoko! It is time to WAKE UP!

Tomoko: I know. I've prepared myself to go back to the battle again! Jia You my fellow pharmers!

Wishes in 2008

1. Graduation Trip -- I am really "pokkai", but still looking forward to go somewhere special before I join another more torturing world of working life (most of my friends told me the same thing) . Current places in the list: Perhentian Island, Bali Island, Melbourne, Tokyo, Taiwan & Mt Kinabalu cum Sabah Trip. Every place has its own specialities and attractions. I wish miracle will happen to me, so that I can travel to one of the places.
2. Finishing at least 2 self-enrichment books. I have "The World Is Flat" & "The Five People You Meet In The Heaven" in hand right now. Must try to read more!!! Everyone in the world is competiting to each other in this globalised era. I need to make myself better so that I am not left out by the fast pace of development taking place in every single moment right now.
3. I wish my final semester in NUS would be a fruitful, contented, memorable, sweet & wonderful one. Of course here does not mean to do well academically as I do not think that is the most important thing in my life. I treasure family & friendship far more than good grades, and I really mean that.
4. I wish to find my life goal and obtain a job that I really like before I graduate in this semester. I have almost convinced myself to make up my mind and go for pre-registration before I take the next step to involve in the pharmaceutical industry. Not that I 放不下 the four years of time spent in the Pharmacy course. I take the 9-month pre-reg as an opportunity to gain knowledge and build up good foundation in clinical and direct patient contact context. The 9 months can also serve as a platform for me to polish myself to become tougher in order to take up any challenges in the future. I hope my mind will not fluctuate again, unless I am lucky enough to get another good prospects job offer. Wish myself ~ALL THE BEST~
5. There is friend I wish her to be strong & happy all the time. I cannot do much for her besides praying hard for her. I believe she can win the battle as she has proven herself since the beginning. I am so proud of her. She will definitely see the sun shines in the end.
6. I hope grandma, mum, dad, sisters, brothers, cousins, uncles, aunties & everyone in my family to live happily & healthy throughout the Year 2008.
7. I wish myself to be more optimistic, confident, accepting, considerate and happier!

Bye Bye my last holiday in Uni-Life

Yea, I had a fruitful holiday in Dec 2007. I was my very very last holiday before I step into another phase of life -- working. That's why I am quite 感触良多 recently, recalling back lotsa lotsa memories from Year 1-Year 3 in NUS. And for the 1st time I can declare this as my real, genuine holiday. No part-time job, no school activities, no preceptorship, no special event that requires me to rush back to SG etc. Perhaps I benefit more for not being accepted to work with HPB and GSK. That's why lucky me can enjoy the precious time with my family as I may not be able to stay at home for such a long time after I start working. I also managed to catch up with some of my long lost friends in Penang since I left secondary school. The Chinese quotion: 塞翁失马，焉知非福 has proven it's meaning. Well, it is time to summarise what I did in this 有意义的假期 before I go back to SG for my final semester.

1. Catching up with Kam Swee after I last met her in NUS 2 years ago. She spent one year to work and play in New Zealand. We had a long pillow-talk during the night I spent at her house. I was updated with many news and gossips from this Social Queen. Thanks for being such a great friend of mine though we have not been in the same class or same course in the past. That is called 缘份，I always believe in that =) I wish her to have a good future undertakings.

2. Hatyai Trip on 24-25th Dec. Again, thanks to Swee's invitation. Many people were shocked that I haven't been to Hatyai as I am staying in Kedah, and Hatyai is quite near from my hometown. Alright, I admit that I am "sua ku". So, to stop people from calling me "sua ku" I made the right decision to join the trip though I am offically "pokkai". Besides Swee and I, there were three more friends with us in this trip : Siew Yin, Hooi Kheng & Ke Peng. I've never ever talked to Hooi Kheng & Ke Peng though we were from same aima mater. But but, both of them are very easy-going and fun-loving persons indeed. Glad to have them in the trip that I enjoyed so many lame jokes and laughters. I did not meet Siew Yin since I left UTM. Had a good chat with her in the car. Happy to know she is doing well in her career. People go to Hatyai for cheap shopping. I went there for food hunting. Tomyam, seafood, Thai steam rice, Thai coconuts, mango sticky rice, cincao, 黑糯米, dodol....and many many more! No wonder I gained weight in only 2 days. But, no regrets!

Gorgeous Kuan Yin sculpture

I hit the giant bell, prayed for a wonderful 2008 year ahead

Thai coconuts taste best in a hot sunny day !

Breathtaking view from Kuan Yin Temple. It was terribly hot hot hot!

This is only 1/3 of our buffet meal. I miss the cincao, salad, coffee flavoured ice-cream and desserts the most.

Hatyai was very happening during X'mas Eve

Cute snowman

X'mas gifts ready for exchange

Everyone was satisfied with the present exchanged. Happy ending =)


3. Yumcha with LeeHwang & SiWei at Old Town Coffee Shop. This was my very 1st visit to such a high-class & 古典 kopitiam. I don't know that Old Town has many outlets in Malaysia. Ok, I am "sua ku" again. This was my very 1st hang-out with SiWei since we farewelled in Nottingham. We updated each other about our life, talked about pre-reg in Malaysia hospitals and listed down wish-to-go places in the future. Life is really wonderful with friends around. I wish our friendship will last 4eva !

Precious Moment: SiWei, KamSwee, LeeHwang & I

4. 梁静茹签唱会@ AutoCity. I always wish to attend Fish Leong's Concert as many people say that she sings better than what we've heard in her album. LeeHwang had 3 free tickets for her 签唱会, this definitely fulfilled my wish though Fish Leong only sang 5 songs in throughout the event. This was the 2nd 签唱会 I've ever attended. The 1st one was LeeHom's in SG IMM. Obviously, I am not a good fan as I did not buy any albums of both singers when I attended those events. Go there and listen to their songs, that's my main purpose. Haha. Also thanks to this event that I managed to meet up with another secondary school friends -- Ai Huey. We had a dinner at Takehama Restaurant before heading for the event starts. Food not as nice as expeceted but nicest people to talk-cock.

The clearest resolution of pic I managed to shoot from far

5. Shopping. I accompanied my mum and aunty to shop in Bukit Mertajam. Both of them got their favorite clothes and shoes at the end of the day. Mummy also bought me a lovely blouse =) I also shopped with LeeHwang & Aihuey in BM town centre. AiHuey is a real Shopping Queen as she grabbed away many clothes in each butique we entered. Thanks to LeeHwang for being such a wonderful host, tourguide and driver for those 2 days. (p/s: I discovered another new place called Raja Uda for clothes and food in Seberang Prai)

6. My elder brother offered me a fantastic dinner treat at a Japanese restaurant called 树林 at AutoCity (It has become a hot spot for family outing and hang-out of the residents in Seberang Prai) I shall declare that as the best ever Japanese 料理 I've ever tried. Adik: Arigatou gozaimashita. My next target: Makaning the original Japanese 料理 in Tokyo!

女人唔易做

这个世界不是男人就是女人。然而，如果有得选择，你想当男的还是女的？原因又是什么？多少年来多少人问过这个问题、被问过这个问题，又或是自己想过这个问题......

那天妹妹从KL回来，还带了一部香港TVB 连戏剧，原来她还记得姐姐我喜欢港剧，蛮感动的，哈！

看了看剧名，《女人唔易做》，并不觉怎么特别吸引人，就不过是普通的生活写实电视剧罢了。可是，不看还好，开始了第一集后竟然欲罢不休，马拉松式地在短短两天内看完！姊弟恋、女人强過男人、不婚妈妈、大男人主义﹐这几個具有争论性的题目交错起来，形成了整部戏的backbone。观后感，一个字：赞！

最欣赏由邓翠雯饰演的Hilda, 前卫的现代女性作风，自信得来又不失柔情的一面。其实最令我折服的是她积极面对生活中的挫折与挑战，永远不向命运低头的倔强个性。

由林峰饰演的小齐也让我印象深刻。不理一般华人保守的价值观念，努力地追求心中所爱，不被看好的姐弟恋终于开花结果。好欣赏他那痴情不羁，为求真爱不惜一切的态度。现实中恐怕很难遇到这种近乎绝种的男人，如果有我想我会立刻嫁给他！

这部戏给我带来了很多启示。剧中那些非常有意义的人生价值观发人深思，作为现实生活的借镜。谁说看电视是浪费时间的？

假期中的我就是那么的“堕落”。什么都不做，就窝在温暖的家里看电视、发呆、睡觉。。。好不快活！ 噢，看来我那些从新加坡带回来的课业又要被冷藏了。善哉！善哉！

回家

终于要回家了。暂时告别这个繁华的城市，回到那个纯朴的乡村。昨天下午买了车票后，第一时间拨电话告诉妈妈。游子归心似箭的心情立刻涌上心房。这种感觉已经数不清是第几次了。

多希望常常可以回家。

我可以天天赖床，把闹钟藏起来

我可以在悠闲的午后，看看村里的孩子玩躲猫猫、捉昆虫

我也可以在睡午觉时，梦见大笨鲸带我畅游美丽的世界

给未来的自己

站在狂风的天台一望无际
这一座孤寂的城市
在天空与高楼交接的尽头
谁追寻空旷的自由

阳光覆满这一刻宁静的我
隔绝了喧嚣和冷漠
川流不息的人游荡在街头
谁能听见谁的寂寞

找一个人惶惶相惜
找一颗心心心相印
在这个宇宙　我是独一无二
没人能取代
不管怎样　怎样都会受伤
伤了又怎样　
至少我很坚强 我很坦荡

夜幕笼罩灿烂的一片灯海
多少人多少种无奈
在星光里遗忘昨天的伤害
一觉醒来还有期待

我不放弃爱的勇气
我不怀疑会有真心
我要握住　一个最美的梦
给未来的自己
一天一天　一天推翻一天
坚持的信仰
我会记住自己今天的模样

有一个人惶惶相惜
有一颗心心心相印
抛开过去　我想认真去追寻
未来的自己
不管怎样　怎样都会受伤
伤了又怎样　
至少我很坚强 我很坦荡

未来的你会懂我的疯狂

第一次听这首歌时，就被它带有淡淡忧伤的旋律所感动。后来再仔细咀嚼歌词，更对它情有独钟。梁静茹那把清脆的嗓子把现代都市人的心情唱得淋漓尽致。至少我感觉得到。

来新加坡以前，曾经对自己许下一个承诺：不管环境多么恶劣，也不允许自己失去自我。三年半后，发现自己并没有履行承诺。我已忍不清现在的自己到底是个怎样的人。从一个信心满满，雄心壮志，演变成今天的平凡是福，简单就好，甚至有些时候企图选择逃避。今天我只能下这样的结论。

三年后，当我再一次听这首歌时，会不会依旧被感动？

雨天

经过漫长的三个星期， 从 study week 痛苦的煎熬， 考场上的惊心动魄， 到考完最后一张试卷的如释重负， 终于重获自由。 昨天和一群系友到Bugis去吃吃、逛逛， 真的觉得很久没有好好享受生活了。 工作后的朋友总要我好好珍惜在大学里所剩无几的时光， 我却希望早点儿毕业，不想再承受NUS 里那股让我透不过气的压力。

今天起得很早，本想让自己多睡一会儿， 但生理时钟却非常准时地把我给叫醒。 耗了整个早上锁在电视机前，试图弥补先前所牺牲的电视节目，Globe Trekker 使我更加向往自由。新加坡似乎越来越不适合像我这种爱幻想的人。 我的抱怨好像又更多了，可能就是所谓的过渡期，但我并不晓得几时可以为自己找到答案， 只有耐心地摸索、等待。。。

今天是雨天， 正好让我用来当不想出门的藉口。 我打开家的大门，向外边四处张望，试图寻找些什么。

室友非常好奇我的举止， 问道：“你到底在看些什么？下雨天，外面有什么东西那么吸引你？”

“ 没什么，我只是在怀念小时候雨天时，总爱靠着窗口，看着窗外下雨的景象，听着滴答滴答的雨声，就可以很满足地渡过一个下午。那时的日子是单纯的，也是快乐的。。。” 我想也没想地对她说道，并没有意识到嘴角是微微往上扬的。

从来没有忘记朋友说过的一句话：“人不应该活在回忆里，那只会浪费你更多的时间与精力。”

我当然明白那句话里的含义。 但是，如果没有了那些回忆, 日子将会是可悲的。 就好像刚刚那单纯雨天的回忆，至少它让我更加认清自己，也学会懂得珍惜。当我回到现实， 发现外面的雨水雨声其实是人类的贪婪、生态的不平衡所造成。

如果可以，我愿意选择活在回忆里，永远不要醒来。因为我突然发现，小时侯的雨天让我得到满足，即使是那么微不足道的小小快乐。。。

Day Trip to Canterbury

As usual, must take a typical tourist picture :P

Canterbury Cathedral -- UNESCO World Heritage Site

The cathedral is too humongous that we only managed to capture part of the building

I was amazed by the tedious carved work inside

The Tomb of St. Thomas

According to history, pilgrims spent days and nights of long long journey just to see this -- the Shrine of St Thomas of Canterbury

Nice =)

Even the windows inside also incredibly nice

I was exploring part of the cathedral


I prefer the compound area of the cathedral

The famous Norman Gate

Tomoko was so proud of her artistic picture shot...hehe

The ang-moh uncle was quite skillful in picture taking. This is the proof :)

Nice hor ^_^

What a wonderful day !

It looked so unreal, like a scene that would only appear in a fairy tale
My favorite place in Canterbury

Because of this angle of view, Tomoko and Chiyoko sacrificed their precious sight-seeing time, just wanted to get the perfect shot...but that also made our journey fun and interesting

The Roman Museum -- we were cheated by its spectacular building printed in the tourist info handbook. The gorgeous building is no longer exists in the present day, it only appears in the huge poster behind me...cheh...

Roman Museum was built underground -- "UP"

and "DOWN"

Tomoko became a busybody to help the lady combing her hair...like very complicated...muaks

Piggy bones and face (^(oo)^)

I also contributed part of my arts talent in finishing the wall decoration

Canterbury town centre

I enjoyed the delicious meal served by the Poppins Restaurant. yummy ^_^


Historical Canterbury Hospital, too bad it was not opened on Sunday

Chiyoko was upset for not being able to go for her Canterbury Tales


Canterbury clock tower


I wonder why she sayang the lamp post so much

No body knows what is the purpose of putting the cute little sheep there

At the end of the trip, sending off my postcards (whisper: those postcards were not from Canterbury, I brought them along with me from London coz I've forgotten to deliver in London..hehe)